Thursday, October 20, 2005

Ack!

My secret pal has rumbled who I am! I must have given it away - but how? I didn't mention spotty dogs, tarantulas or kites. Am I really so easy to guess? Obviously.

Warning. - mini rant alert.

People are never satisfied. It doesn't matter how hard you try, it never quite cuts it. I despair that I will ever win. Talk about a round (literally - haha) peg in a square hole.

Why is HEing such a bloomin headache sometimes? I socialize for J's sake as I'd hate him to feel isolated, but there are times when I wish to walk away from the whole thing. I know this is a life thing and if you meet 1 or 2 people along the way you actually like it's a bonus, and a couple of the HE families are more than fabulous - but, there is a but, it's never simple, happy, plain sailing, someone somewhere is dissatisfied or wants change (often, I think, for changes sake). J is such a happy chap and has made some excellent friends and if I'm honest if it wasn't for that I'd just walk away (actually I'd probably run). I'm sure others have moments like this, but this week it's coming to a head for me. Time maybe to step back, breathe and decide what's right for all of us as a family. This will be a hard call to make!

Ok - ranting over. I'm sure no-one reads this much - but apologies to those who do - just needed to verbalize what I was feeling.

I'm off now to drool some more over my latest batch of Hipknits silk.......................mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm silk *slobber, drool*

1 comment:

Peatbogfaery said...

Stop that dribbling, it'll get sticky!