Sometimes I hold my breath until my head starts to swim just to see if I can see fishes in the air. And sometimes I spin around and around until my balance is gone and pretend I've just got off of the worlds fastest merry-go-round. Sometimes I smother myself in my duvet from head to toe and lie still not breathing and wonder if I am dead. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I don't see what others do. Sometimes I walk down the street and I know I am not there and my reflection in the windows is just an illusion. And sometimes I look for the person I was but I never find her. Sometimes I balance on the very tip of my toes, way up high and wonder if I will ever be brave enough to fall. And sometimes I wade out to sea, almost out of my depth, but I always stop and swim back to shore. Sometimes I wander through cemeteries and look for my grave. Sometimes I run down a hill really fast towards a busy road but I always stop in time. Sometimes I touch myself to make sure I am still here.
Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes I am no longer sure if I am just a figment of someone else's imagination.
Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes, I'm not sure I am real.